Mawiage

For the record, this is my blog, not my family blog. Though, there will definitely be a lot about the two of us in it. The sole purpose is for me to have another writing outlet. Writers just never get enough of those... This will be random, and mostly my commentary on life, but here goes.

Student married ward are interesting. And I thought student singles wards were funny... The first week I attended one,  my first thought was, "I really hope we get called to nursery or that Jeff gets called as a counselor in a singles ward." It was way to weird for me. Following thoughts included, "Ugh! I'm surrounded by married people!" (after which I had to remind myself that I was one of those married people) and "How are we ever going to make friends, if everyone in our entire ward has their best friend connected to them at the hip and aren't really looking for other friends?" And I kept playing the "find the married people" game, where I look at every girl's ring finger to see if she has a ring, which I still do in all of my classes. It still takes me a minute to remember that every girl in our ward has a ring on her left hand... I converted it to the "compare rings" game at church, which probably isn't the best place for my mind to be, but with so much shiny stuff in Relief Society, it's hard to stay focused before the lesson starts.

Part of the struggle to adjust probably comes from me not feeling like I'm married. Don't get me wrong, my lifestyle has been very different since becoming Rachel Hawks, but I guess I thought I would feel different after getting married. I thought I'd feel different. But I guess there's really not a marriage feeling. I thought, of all the big steps I take in my life, this one has to feel the most different. After the ceremony I'd feel every moment, "I'm married!" But that didn't happen.....I just feel like Rachel, the way I always have. I have to remind myself sometimes that I'm a wife. (Oh, weird...) I still think sometimes, "When I get married..." Haha, I am! Silly....

So Jeff just said this to me, "We should have all our important conversations over text, because then I can laugh at all the things I think are funny, but then respond sympathetically and you won't get mad because you won't hear me laugh." Ok, that was a little paraphrased, but same meaning. *sigh* My husband is ridiculous. Good thing I kinda like the guy....;)